Well, I made it. The so-called "Hell Week" of the musical is over, and finally the show opens tonight. No more rehearsals from after school until 10 with a mere 45 minutes of dinner break - I get to go home tonight and rest.
Or I would, except I have way too much to do.
This busy week has utterly offset my schedule. Voice lessons, piano lessons, and Senior Choir at church were not even a considerable option this week. Hanging out with friends - even less of an option. Worst of all, I found little energy or time for homework. In a world where every class and activity tells you that it is your priority, I felt as if 4 trains were pulling me apart. With all of the vehicle analogies being used by my teachers, this ironic feeling was just another mound of dirt on my grave. This concept of "everything is your top priority" is one of the most frustrating things to me, and this isn't even taking into account that I might have things I want to do. It's all very overwhelming for an easily-stressed high school kid that still needs to fill out college applications.
Today in Spanish, however, I saw a glimmer of light. Knowing I didn't have rehearsal today was a plus, but the kicker was something I had been missing for a long time.
We got to color.
I've always liked drawing, and I'd been feeling rather deprived of late as I hadn't drawn in quite some time. I also hadn't felt any inspiration in even longer. As I looked at the Dia de los Muertos skull, I saw a familiar face - the Joker - forming in my mind. This led to me coloring Joker, Batman, and Bane in skull form. It was just nice - no pressure, no goal, no time limit, a positive outcome. This is something that is very healthy for me, and it is unhealthy to not do. I've always felt that leaving myself time for activities like this should be a priority for me, but anything I want to do always comes second. The outside world doesn't care what your meager wishes are - it is your priority.
Here's my question:
What is better - listening to your heart or your mind?
This can be answered in relation to this blog post or not. Your choice.
I think your heart is most important, but your mind is what gets you into these situations (that will make you successful!)
ReplyDeleteFor me, my heart is in wrestling. I know I would struggle to keep up doing full IB, but it will make me a successful person. They both have equal importance. However, when it comes to deciding a career path, I feel like your mind needs to make much of that decision. It is kind of like my post about emotion vs. logic. Which one takes presence over the other. I personally feel like I listen to my mind more than my heart because that makes sense. Emotions don't.
I think that your mind and your heart tend to compromise a lot, and yet something can be seen as your heart and your minds idea - something you do wholly. I also think that not only is theatre something you want to do, but it is something that you have to do wholly for a period of time. If you didn't want to do it wholly, you wouldn't go through hell week - you'd quit. I think possibly what you don't want to do is the catchup from hell week, and it is completely understandable, especially after having given yourself over completely to one activity for one week; getting back into devoting your time to multiple things is familiar, yet strange for now. Ultimately, your mind and your heart are connected, for without your logic to get you through the emotion there would be nothing but emotion, and you can't necessarily everything off of that. There is a reason behind every emotion, which i would classify as "the mind".
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